sigh.. lol

lately...

i don't know what's happening.. life has been sooo twisted.. God.. i just felt like riding the roller coaster.. everything is sooo twisted.. my feelings.. my mind.. everything.. God.. i wish things was easier.. but heck..life isn't a drama right? thanx mama n papa.. u guys r my greatest shoulder ever.. i love u guys soooo much.. my mom is right.. when no one is there for u, ur family turns to u.. i mean, they always turn to u.. duhh.. whatever, i have the best family in the world man! so not jealous of other family okayh... friends come and go... blood is thicker than water.. yeahh baby!

new year.. new me..

cheers to 2009!
as the year was awesome!
full of memories i won't regret~
i still have,
all my family,besties n friends,
that could last till the end...
though there's ups n downs, i walk through everything..
with head held as high as i could..
i will never ever foget any of my memories as it is my precious thing.. my life..
20, a year to add.
damn..
a boy i could love forever( i hope)
a family who always stood by my side..
2 great brothers...
besties i will never be able to let go..
damn..
is all i can say..
a year could make a different..
i hope its a good one..
now in perak, another resolution to be done..
study hard till i achieve what i want..
happy 2010 people..

new year.. new me..

cheers to 2009!
as the year was awesome!
full of memories i won't regret~
i still have,
all my family,besties n friends,
that could last till the end...
though there's ups n downs, i walk through everything..
with head held as high as i could..
i will never ever foget any of my memories as it is my precious thing.. my life..
20, a year to add.
damn..
a boy i could love forever( i hope)
a family who always stood by my side..
2 great brothers...
besties i will never be able to let go..
damn..
is all i can say..
a year could make a different..
i hope its a good one..
now in perak, another resolution to be done..
study hard till i achieve what i want..
happy 2010 people..

bestfriends...

I wished they know,

how much i would be there for them..

How iportant they are to me..

i wish they would know,

how much they mean to me as i always try to be there for them.

best friends?

i don't make them easily...

Some people say that i am they're good friends in just a month..

but for me, it takes more than that to be called my bestfriends..

bestfriends go through alot to be called a bestfriend..

bestfriends cry together, laugh together, n never stop being there for each other no matter what or no matter how far they are..

heck.. this so called 'bestfriends' expect us to be there for them but did they ever be there for u?

heck no...

actually.. they called u bestfriends just cause u'll feel good n i'll be there for them,,

but nope..

i stick to my 4 besties...

Siha: we'be known each other during form 3... sorry, but at first i never thought who she really is.. but until form 5, i know her and she's not the girl that i thought she was.. She is more than that.. She's strong, she've been through alot.. alot i tell you.. she's not the ordinary girl.. from then on, i know and i hope she will be my bestfriend forever cuz she knows me best...

Nina: i known her but somehow i don't remember her back then from darjah 4 ke 5.. huhu.. when i was inform 4 kot kitorg mula rapat, skali dgn siha.. nina is sooo caring.. she have a way to make me smile.. evrytime i tell her sth, she always have that look dat says i'm here for u..

hehe... she's also the manja one, sumtimes best manja2 dgn nina.. hehehehehehe... nina also knows me best.. =D

Xubz: i know her since form 3, tp xbrape rapat.. then in form 4.. i don't knoe how kitorg mula rapat.. hehe. i found out she can draw incredibly great.. OMG! i'm so jealous of her.. she have a natural hand on drawing.. God! I still keep some of the drawings she made.. haha.. well.. she's like a big sister to me.. she never fail to text me no matter what.. hehe.. but i didn't see her for like a year i think... huwaa..

p/s: 3 of them knows my biggest secret. n they never ever judge me which makes them the bestest! n i love them more than anyone!!!!!

Hikmi: he's a great guy.. i know him from metro driving.. i thought that he's just going to be u know, same driving test but then i found out that he worked in kfc.. that time i was working in mph.. but then i don't know how we end up being so close.. i used to have feelings for him.. haha.. weird..but we r good friends now.. he's always there.. he knows i have something bad or good going on just by a text.. how cool is that???eventhough i don't make it like i have problems.. no one ever know what is behind on how i text people..but he knows.. i miss him though.. we didn't meet since last we worked.. we always said that we have to meet.. but then we never have the chance.. =D

Moreover! theyre all the best friends i had in life! n no one! i repeat! no one! can replace them at all! we've been through thick n thins together! n only us can break us apart.. hehehe..

just another burden!

aku nk nanges..

i wanna scream my lungs out!

where did i do wrong?

what was my mistake???

Dear God!

Please Give me another chance, to fix what's in past!

I need someone to hear me scream!

Give me another chance!

Dear God!

Help me do better next time..

I did my best!

I failed to get what i achieved!

Though i did what i have to...

I FAILED TO GET WHAT I WANT!!!!!!!

heyy..

i'm now home.. tomorrow going back to perak..

exam's coming around the corner..

i didnt study yet! and i'm not prepared!

stupid aren't I?

well..

actually..

today we celebrated my brother's birthday.. happy birthday to u my little bro!

i'll always love u la!

it was fun..

n tiring... cuz i was in pain.. erghhh...

suck right..

well..

i love my family..

i love having my family now.. i love them and would do anything for them..

my dad: he have great personality, he love giving lectures that i love to listen to.. he is caring, funny person..

he's the best!

my mom: she have a happy go lucky personality, she's funny!, loving,caring, she's sporting yet very angry person, but she's the best mom i've ever known.

my brother: he's soooo funny!, he's always having this thought that can make people smile and laugh.. plus he is soooo caring, i never met any brother that as caring as him.. and he cares about his famile and me so much.. which what i love about him. sometimes he can get mad easily but its ok mehh..

my small bro: he's special! he's the brother that i never get separated with until i got into uitm. the first experience was soo hard.. we've been sleeping on the same bed until i was in form 3 ke 4 mcm tu.. but we know evrything about each other. we can share secrets and keep the secret with each other. he's now a big guy.. he's changed and we're not that close anymore.. he's more to my big brother.. well.. i can understand.. maybe cuz i am a girl. so i don't know guy's stuffs like my big brother do.. but still!

I LOVE MY FAMILY! THEYRE MY LIFE! MY SOUL AN I'M NOTHING WITHOUT THEM!!!!!!!!

music is my life.
and i havent gone a day without them..
music affects my mood..
and my mood can be shown by what kind of songs i listens to..
well..
right now i'm listening to halo.
by beyonce..
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anyways..
i'm just wondering if i should get a broadband..
you know, so i wont have to rent it or ssahkan my friend just to online..
ngeng2..
i hate fights..
i hate him.,..
urghh..
tp sayang..
urghh..
poyo je aku nih..
wekk..
outtt...